My Best "Chance"!!

April 1, 2008

A couple of weeks ago, Chance was an usher at my niece’s wedding. As you can see, he sports a different kind of “do”. He also has his lip pierced, but the bride asked him not to wear his lips rings (2) during the ceremony. (Couldn’t wear the rings, but the mohawk was okay?)

It was interesting to watch people’s reaction when they first saw Chance! Most were very accepting (and, of course, many were family) and teased Chance about his hair. Others looked at him as if they knew the person underneath the mohawk and from the expression on their face - didn’t need, or want, to know anything else about him. Some people looked at his hair and judged him as a person.

Chance is a great kid! He’s very kind, loving and intelligent. He’s also a very confident person - as you can see by his appearance! To look at him as if he were anything else is a mistake! He’s very quick-witted and funny! He has a comeback to anything thrown at him! He is one of my greatest blessings.

Wouldn’t it be amazing if we could all look past appearance and see others (and ourselves) as God sees each of us! None of us can know what’s inside another person unless we are allowed “in” to that person’s life. We may think we know someone - but we only know what that person allows us to know about them!

How amazing it is that God loves us no matter what we look like. God sees our heart and that’s how I want to see others! My counselor, J, has encouraged me to make a conscious effort to smile and greet others that I come in contact with each day. Where I work that is actually in our employee handbook - that we smile and greet anyone who comes within ten feet of us! That probably seems odd, but we are a hospital where patients and their families sometimes need that little bit of contact. It is something that I make an effort to do every day.

One of the things I’m struggling with right now is the separation from my husband. It is awkward for me to have to answer questions. I’m not really ready to share reasons - not yet. I don’t want to place blame - there’s enough for both of us! I won’t talk badly about my husband - there’s no reason! No one needs to know more than I am willing to share! J told me that one of the paths I need to take in my “recovery” is to stop worrying about what others may think of decisions that I have made regarding my life! No one lived my life - no one knows the issues and events in my marriage that brought us to this point. I’m okay with that! I’m learning to say, “I would rather not talk about it, thank you.”

God knows my heart. God knows my marriage. God is my sanctuary.

In His Love and Blessings
annb