A Time For Everything

I've not been able to post this week because my computer had some weird glitch or something that kept me from accessing this site as well as any other site I tried to navigate! It's not been a good week - we are in a state of "limbo" right now.

Mother is not eating - not taking in much liquid and I believe, she has decided it's time for her to leave this world. As of last night, she is having trouble swallowing her medications and we have had to make some changes to our methods of administering the meds. She is sleeping much more now, waking only when I wake her to give meds or to change her bed. The earlier part of the week, she and I spent a lot of time talking, praying and crying together. She wanted to make sure that all funeral arrangements she wanted were ready and in place. She wanted to make sure I had her dress ready and knew what she wanted and that her wishes would be followed. The last couple of days there has been less conversation. She is having some trouble speaking and when she is awake, she looks at the light above her bed or at the picture of her and my Dad that I have hanging beside her bed.

We have called all the family to let them know of the change in her condition. She had some visitors today, her sister Nelda and nieces Carol and Rhonda. Kathy, Kaitlin, Jeannie, Stacey, Michael and Elizabeth also came to visit with her today. She didn't visit much, but I think she enjoyed the time listening to all of us talking about some of the memories we have from earlier days.

I knew this time would come and I know she is tired and ready, but it's still difficult. I thought I had myself under control until Tuesday evening when I really thought she might not be here the next morning. It was very hard for me to go to bed and leave her side. I could not get my emotions in check and cried for a long time before I was able to calm down.

I am going to miss her. I'm so thankful for the time we've been able to spend together these last few months!

I'm in close contact with our Hospice "angels" and they have been out this week visiting with Mom and with me and keeping a close watch. I'm so thankful for their support.

I'm thankful that my Mother is a Christian - knowing she has a home prepared for her in heaven makes the situation more tolerable. I'm thankful we will all be together again one day and that she will be with my Dad and other family members soon.

Ecclesiastes 3

1) There is a time for everything,

and a season for every activity under heaven:

2( a time to be born and a time to die, . .

4) a time to weep and a time to laugh,

a time to mourn and a time to dance,

11) He has made everything beautiful in its time.

He has also set eternity in the hearts of men;

yet they cannot fathom what God has done

from beginning to end.

12) I know that there is nothing better for men

than to be happy and do good while they live.

14) I know that everything God does will endure forever;

nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it.

20) All go to the same place;

all come from dust, and to dust all return.