My Heart is Overwhelmed

Hear my cry, O God;
Attend unto my prayer.
From the end of the earth will I call unto thee, when my heart is overwhelmed: Psalm 61:1,2

The last couple of days have been a little rough. Mother's done really well in the morning, but by afternoon she becomes anxious and can't settle down. Yesterday, she started about 1:15 pm - crying and feeling out of control! I called her Hospice nurse, but I had already given Mom all the medication she could have at that time. There really was not anything that could be done and we just had to wait it out! She finally was able to settle down and get some rest about 5:00. By that time, I had been able to give her more medication. Dr King told us it might take a couple of weeks to see any improvement with the changes he's made to her medication. I hope we make it! She is so distressed and it's very hard to see her that way.
Today, she did great until about 2:30 pm when she started asking me questions about family members and when I answered her questions, she realized how confused she was about everything. She still, at times, during these last two days, thinks that I am Aunt Beryl. I'm not sure why except that I know from past things she's told me, and the things that she says to me when she thinks that I'm Aunt Beryl, that she always felt close to her and was able to talk to her about things that she couldn't talk about with anyone else. I try not to correct her unless I absolutely have to because it just upsets her more. The hardest part of it all is when she talks about her Mother. She forgets that her Mother and Daddy have already passed away and asks me all the time if I know where her Mom is and if she can call her or go see her. Today, she had a lot of questions about Uncle Paul.
Sometimes, I feel quite overwhelmed with all of it! It's very frustrating that I can't help her when she is in the midst of her anxiety attacks. I sit with her and pray with her, but sometimes it feels like it will just go on forever. Hopefully, now that Dr King is caring for her, we will finally be able to get her meds straightened out so that she can have some peace.

Jeannie came over this evening and sat with her so that Jody and I could go to the store. I had some things I needed to pick up for Mom and also needed some groceries! I am trying to get used to shopping in greater quantities since I'm not able to leave the house without someone to sit with Mom. I'm such a creature of habit, it may take me a while to get used to it.

Well, Mom's down for the night - or at least 3 to 4 hours. I know that God will give both Mom and me what we need to get through these struggles!

Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time; casting all your anxiety upon him, because he careth for you. I Peter 5:6,7