Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Life!

April 6, 2008

This past week has been pretty good overall. Thursday evening our department held a conference at the hospital, inviting practitioners, clinicians and other staff. We had an amazing speaker who provided information on Credentialing - the reasons why we are so stringent when it applies to staff at our facility. There are governing agencies, corporate policy and bylaws that determine the documentation which must be submitted by the medical staff in order to obtain or maintain privileges to work at our facility. It was really interesting for me, still somewhat of a “newbie”!

Friday, we had a staff meeting regarding the new forms for (those dreaded) Performance Evaluations which are handed out each year! Corporate had come out with a new form this year and we were given the option of using the old or the new form this year - and Boss D wanted our input. Since I started last year, I have only had my 90-day evaluation and had not really taken the time to look over the form.

The meeting was “interesting” - with several of us giving our opinion of the form and, actually, I’m not even sure of the final decision. Because of our conference the previous day, held from 4 - 6 pm, we were going to leave at 4:00, but ended up not leaving until 4:20. Still an early and much needed day for all of us!

Saturday, I met with J and then decided to stay in Edmond to do some shopping. I’m still looking for things for my new apartment - moving in two weeks! I shopped all day and found a few things at some great sales. I made my way through Target, Kohl’s, T J Maxx, Gordman’s, Bed, Bath & Beyond and a couple more!

My “oil change” light had come on in the car on Thursday and I intended to get my oil changed here in town where Michael and Elizabeth take their cars. In Edmond, yesterday, I passed by many oil change places and never thought once about pulling in, that is until about 3:00, when I passed a small oil change place that for some reason, caught my eye! It turned out to be a “fun” experience.

I pulled in and they immediately started working on the car - with me right there able to watch the whole process. I like that because I’m always a little apprehensive about being taken advantage of because I’m a woman. It certainly was not like that! They changed the oil, pulled the air filter and showed it to me. It was really dirty! It was closing time and yet they looked through the shop looking for my particular air filter and when they didn’t have it, the owner (who looked quite familiar to me) drove to a part store, brought it back and put it on my car.

While the owner, “Phil” was gone to get the filter, I was talking to the guys working on the car and discovered that Phil was my 8th grade history teacher! Now, of course, he looked a little different - after 30+ years, but I knew he looked familiar! He was one of my teachers who really made an impact on me. He was young and had only been teaching a year or two at that time and was actually still working on his degree. Can you believe - “back then” - you could teach even though you were not quite through with your degree?! Well, when he came back with the air filter, the guys told him what we had discovered and he came over and we chatted a bit about “back then”. It was fun to see him after all these years and I was also very impressed with the service I received - with or without “Mr. Phipps”. I will definitely be going back there when another 3,000 miles rolls around! If you’re ever in Edmond, America and need an oil change - I highly recommend Phipps Phast Oil Change!

Last night, about 10, my sister called to let me know that one of my Dad’s brothers was very near to the end of his life. One of my aunts who attended my niece’s wedding three weeks ago had told us that he was not doing well and had been put on morphine. I knew then that I wanted to see him, but had never taken the time to do so. All of my Dad’s brothers and their wives were an intricate part of my life - while growing up still to this day!

I told Elizabeth that I was going to go down first thing this morning to see him and my aunt and she and Michael want to see him, too! We will be leaving here about 9:00 this morning and say our goodbyes. It’s so hard to lose people we love. I know it’s a part of life and at my age, it will happen again, but it doesn’t make it any easier. I feel like I am grieving so much these days. Then end of 2006, my uncle passed and then one of my aunts and then, of course, my mom a year ago. Now I am grieving the death of my marriage and working so hard to develop positive coping skills.

I wish that I had gone to see Uncle L three weeks ago, as I had planned. I told myself I was busy, but would get there as soon as I could - even though I know I “make” time for those things that I deem a priority. I pray that I will be able to see him and tell him goodbye this morning. If ever there was a reminder not to put off seeing loved ones and letting them know how we feel about them, - this is that reminder!

After we see my uncle and my aunt, we are going shopping again! Michael and Elizabeth are looking for a new dining table and I have a couple of things I need for the apartment.
Then tomorrow, a new week starts and everthing continues as “normal”!

In His Love and Blessings
annb

Learning Stress Management Coping Skills

April 3, 2008

Last night, I went to my first - of six weekly sessions - Stress Management Class. It’s being held at the Christian Counseling Center where I meet with J, although J is not the leader of the class. I think it’s going to be a good class. It’s small - just a few people (all women) and we all seem to have a good rapport and are comfortable with each other.

Today one of my good friends sent me an email containing the following:

CHRISTIAN WAYS TO REDUCE STRESS …

An Angel says, ‘Never borrow from the future. If you worry about what may happen tomorrow and it doesn’t happen, you have worried in vain. Even if it does happen, you have to worry twice.’

1. Pray

2. Go to bed on time.

3. Get up on time so you can start the day unrushed.
4. Say No to projects that won’t fit into your time schedule, or that will compromise your mental health.
5. Delegate tasks to capable others.
6. Simplify and unclutter your life.
7. Less is more. (Although one is often not enough, two are often too many.)
8. Allow extra time to do things and to get to places.
9. Pace yourself. Spread out big changes and difficult projects over time; don’t lump the hard things all together.
10. Take one day at a time.
11. Separate worries from concerns .. If a situation is a concern, find out what God would have you do and let go of the anxiety . If you can’t do anything about a situation, forget it.
12. Live within your budget; don’t use credit cards for ordinary purchases.
13. Have backups; an extra car key in your wallet, an extra house key buried in the garden, extra stamps, etc.
14. K.M.S. (Keep Mouth Shut). This single piece of advice can prevent an enormous amount of trouble.
15. Do something for the Kid in You everyday.
16. Carry a Bible with you to read while waiting in line.
17. Get enough rest.
18. Eat right.
19 Get organized so everything has its place.
20. Listen to a tape while driving that can help improve your quality of life.
21. Write down thoughts and inspirations.
22. Every day, find time to be alone.
23. Having problems? Talk to God on the spot. Try to nip small problems in the bud. Don’t wait until it’s time to go to bed to try and pray.
24. Make friends with Godly people.
25. Keep a folder of favorite scriptures on hand.
26. Remember that the shortest bridge between despair and hope is often a good ‘Thank you Jesus ..’
27. Laugh.
28. Laugh some more!
29. Take your work seriously, but not yourself at all.
30. Develop a forgiving attitude (most people are doing the best they can).
31. Be kind to unkind people (they probably need it the most).
32. Sit on your ego.
33 Talk less; listen more.
34. Slow down.
35. Remind yourself that you are not the general manager of the universe.
36. Every night before bed, think of one thing you’re grateful for that you’ve never been grateful for before.

GOD HAS A WAY OF TURNING THINGS AROUND FOR YOU.

‘If God is for us, who can be against us?’
(Romans 8:31)

In His Love and Blessings
annb

My Best "Chance"!!

April 1, 2008

A couple of weeks ago, Chance was an usher at my niece’s wedding. As you can see, he sports a different kind of “do”. He also has his lip pierced, but the bride asked him not to wear his lips rings (2) during the ceremony. (Couldn’t wear the rings, but the mohawk was okay?)

It was interesting to watch people’s reaction when they first saw Chance! Most were very accepting (and, of course, many were family) and teased Chance about his hair. Others looked at him as if they knew the person underneath the mohawk and from the expression on their face - didn’t need, or want, to know anything else about him. Some people looked at his hair and judged him as a person.

Chance is a great kid! He’s very kind, loving and intelligent. He’s also a very confident person - as you can see by his appearance! To look at him as if he were anything else is a mistake! He’s very quick-witted and funny! He has a comeback to anything thrown at him! He is one of my greatest blessings.

Wouldn’t it be amazing if we could all look past appearance and see others (and ourselves) as God sees each of us! None of us can know what’s inside another person unless we are allowed “in” to that person’s life. We may think we know someone - but we only know what that person allows us to know about them!

How amazing it is that God loves us no matter what we look like. God sees our heart and that’s how I want to see others! My counselor, J, has encouraged me to make a conscious effort to smile and greet others that I come in contact with each day. Where I work that is actually in our employee handbook - that we smile and greet anyone who comes within ten feet of us! That probably seems odd, but we are a hospital where patients and their families sometimes need that little bit of contact. It is something that I make an effort to do every day.

One of the things I’m struggling with right now is the separation from my husband. It is awkward for me to have to answer questions. I’m not really ready to share reasons - not yet. I don’t want to place blame - there’s enough for both of us! I won’t talk badly about my husband - there’s no reason! No one needs to know more than I am willing to share! J told me that one of the paths I need to take in my “recovery” is to stop worrying about what others may think of decisions that I have made regarding my life! No one lived my life - no one knows the issues and events in my marriage that brought us to this point. I’m okay with that! I’m learning to say, “I would rather not talk about it, thank you.”

God knows my heart. God knows my marriage. God is my sanctuary.

In His Love and Blessings
annb

Entertaining Strangers or Angels

March 30, 2008

“Do not forget to entertain strangers,
for by so doing some people have entertained
angels without knowing it
.”
Hebrews 13:2

I saw a kid from my class was walking home from school. His name was Kyle. It looked like he was carrying all of his books. I thought to myself, “Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday? He must really be a nerd.”
I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my friends tomorrow afternoon), so I shrugged my shoulders and went on. As I was walking, I saw a bunch of kids running toward him. They ran at him, knocking all his books out of his arms and tripping him so he landed in the dirt. His glasses went flying, and I saw them land in the grass about ten feet from him. He looked up and I saw this terrible sadness in his eyes.
My heart went out to him. So, I jogged over to him as he crawled around looking for his glasses, and I saw a tear in his eye. As I handed him his glasses, I said, “Those guys are jerks. They really should get lives.”
He looked at me and said, “Hey thanks!” There was a big smile on his face. It was one of those smiles that showed real gratitude.
I helped him pick up his books, and asked him where he lived. As it turned out, he lived near me, so I asked him why I had never seen him before.
He said he had gone to private school before now. I would have never hung out with a private school kid before. We talked all the way home, and I carried some of his books. He turned out to be a pretty cool kid. I asked him if he wanted to play a little football with my friends. He said yes. We hung out all weekend and the more I got to know Kyle, the more I liked him, and my friends thought the same of him.
Monday morning came, and there was Kyle with the huge stack of books again. I stopped him and said, “Boy, you are gonna really build some serious muscles with this pile of books everyday!” He just laughed and handed me half the books.
Over the next four years, Kyle and I became best friends. When we were seniors we began to think about college. Kyle decided on Georgetown and I was going to Duke. I knew that we would always be friends, that the miles would never be a problem. He was going to be a doctor and I was going for business on a football scholarship.
Kyle was valedictorian of our class. I teased him all the time about being a nerd. He had to prepare a speech for graduation. I was so glad it wasn’t me having to get up there and speak.Graduation day, I saw Kyle. He looked great. He was one of those guys that really found himself during high school. He filled out and actually looked good in glasses. He had more dates than I had and all the girls loved him. Boy, sometimes I was jealous! Today was one of those days.
I could see that he was nervous about his speech. So, I smacked him on the back and said, “Hey, big guy, you’ll be great!” He looked at me with one of those looks (the really grateful one) and smiled. ” Thanks,” he said.
As he started his speech, he cleared his throat, and began, “Graduation is a time to thank those who helped you make it through those tough years. Your parents, your teachers, your siblings, maybe a coach . . .but mostly your friends . . . I am here to tell all of you that being a friend to someone is the best gift you can give them. I am going to tell you a story.”
I just looked at my friend with disbelief as he told the story of the first day we met. He had planned to kill himself over the weekend. He talked of how he had cleaned out his locker so his Mom wouldn’t have to do it later and was carrying his stuff home. He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile. “Thankfully, I was saved. My friend saved me from doing the unspeakable..”
I heard the gasp go through the crowd as this handsome, popular boy told us all about his weakest moment. I saw his Mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful smile.Not until that moment did I realize it’s depth. Never underestimate the power of your actions..
With one small gesture you can change a person’s life.
For better or for worse.
We are all in each others lives to impact one another in some way.
Every word we say, every expression on our face, each tone of our voice and our body language tells those with whom we come in contact a message - whether it’s a message we intended to convey or not. Please God, make me ever mindful that the impression I leave with others is the impression I intend - You, Father, living in me!

In His Love and Blessings
annb

My Saturday - March 27, 2008

I had an appt with J this morning and, as usual, I felt much better after talking to her. This week has been full of ups and downs!
After our appt, I decided to do a little shopping. Michael, Elizabeth and Addy were all away from home today, so I thought it might be more fun to go shopping rather than sit at home alone! I first went to Garden Ridge and spent a while there. There is always so much to look at!
I was looking for some picture frames for the grandkids new pictures and for Chance’s graduation pictures and I found what I was looking for there. I also found some things I wasn’t looking for! I have definitely figured out my color scheme for the apartment I’m moving into in a couple of weeks.
I found some beautiful sofa pillows and throws and decided the colors contained in those would be the color scheme I work with to decorate. I think It’s going to look great!
I went to Target next and found a couple more things and then went home. Michael and Elizabeth came home a bit later and told me to come outside. When I went out they had a Lincoln Navigator sitting in the driveway - they had been car shopping! It was really pretty, big and roomy. Elizabeth needs a bigger vehicle because during the summer, she enjoys taking Addy and the Daycare kids on field trips. She had an SUV last year that worked great, but then traded it in on a smaller car and now she’s ready to get a bigger one for summer again!
I got some laundry done and scrubbed down the bathroom, so I guess I accomplished a bit today! I’m sure there will be plenty more later!
In His Love and Blessings
annb

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

I've moved!

I've moved and am posting here - http://annbitsmylife.com/ - so please come visit my new place!

In His Love and Blessings
annb

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

The Light In My Life!

I know - haven't blogged in a while! So many things happening in my life right now! I can barely take it all in, much less put it all down in writing. There is still light in my life and below you can see five of the brightest! Sunday, all three of the girls met me at the portrait studio and we had all the grandkids pictures taken. We haven't had one of all of them together in a year, so it was fun to be able to have them all together. Hope you enjoy the pictures - I know I do!
















In His Love and Blessings
annb