Today - Nothing Tackled!

I started to do my “Tackle It Tuesday” project today and then decided I just didn’t really feel like doing it – so I didn’t! I’m feeling stressed lately over the job-hunting situation. I need to find a job soon!

I have sent out several resumes and actually had a call today on a resume I sent to a particular business. The only problem was the office that pulled my resume and wanted me to interview was in Tulsa! I applied to the office here locally and I was certainly surprised when they asked me to come in for an interview and then told me where they were located. She asked whether or not I would consider relocating! I told her no and thanked her for the opportunity, but I’m staying where I am now. I have lived in this area for over 25 years and am pretty comfortable.
I have a couple of medical tests tomorrow and then Thursday I have a typing test to take for one of the jobs I applied for this week. Hopefully, that will produce good results.

I received a call today that my Mom’s Death Certificate is ready to pick up from the funeral home. I will do that tomorrow while I’m in town for testing. I still need to make a return appointment with the doctor – should have gone back this week – to run blood work a second time. I’m praying that the results from the test two weeks ago were just a fluke and this test will not show anything abnormal.

This past week I have been reminded of the joys (ha ha) of being a mom to a teenager! Chance is such a great kid and when he doesn’t live up to my expectations it throws me off for a couple of days. I try to “pick my battles” and only insist on a certain standard when the consequences of his actions could be detrimental to his existence (that’s probably a little extreme on my part!) He and I have always shared a close relationship and now that he’s 17 that has started to change. I know that’s normal and I know it has to happen, but I’m really not ready for it! He still feels like my “baby” and I’m finding it difficult to see him as the young man that he has become over the past year. I know, through prayer, we will get through this part of his life – just like I got through each of the girls’ lives – and come out closer as a family.

Jim and Sheila came over last Friday after the baby’s appointment with the pediatrician. I kept Ethan here until they return on Thursday when they will take him back home. I thought it would give Sheila a break with the new baby since Jim returned to work this week. I took Ethan to Elizabeth’s yesterday to spend the night and then realized my medical tests were scheduled for tomorrow morning. I also, today, scheduled a typing test for a job opportunity I am pursuing, so she said she would bring him back on Thursday before she goes to work at the wedding chapel. She is going to bring Addy then as well and she will stay with us for a couple of days.

I had asked Candace to bring the boys over tomorrow to spend some time with Ethan, but had to cancel since I won’t be home. Candace and I used to talk every day, but she’s no longer “allowed” to talk to us. She still calls every couple of days while her husband is at work. I don’t call her except during the day so that I don’t get her in “trouble”. I worry about her and the boys every day. I pray about the situation daily and try to give it over to God. I know that’s the only way things will change. She’s afraid to leave now – he has made threats about what will happen to her if she does leave, thereby controlling her by fear and intimidation. I don’t know how long things can continue as they are between them. She’s made a choice not to share the details of her marriage with everyone and some people – even family members – have made comments that they believe she is just blowing things out of proportion. The comments are unfair and completely wrong! She needs support now, especially from the people who are closest to her. I constantly reassure that her that Jody and I support whatever decision she makes whether we agree with those decisions or not, we love her and that’s what matters! She and I have been able to talk about the issues because I know from experience how hard it is to make a decision when you’re involved in a domestic violence situation. It seems so clear-cut to other people looking in because they don’t have first-hand experience. Oh, if it were only that easy! What a wonderful world this would be!

I don’t hear anything from our oldest daughter. When we call, our calls are not answered. I’ve sent a couple of messages to be added to her list of “friends” so that I can read her blog and keep up with things that way, but those messages have also gone unanswered. Candace says she is having the same results when she tries to communicate with her. I pray for her daily as well. I’m concerned about the life choices she is making and don’t know how to reach her anymore.

Well, I at least have to say that Elizabeth and Michael are very happy together and for that I am thankful. I say it often, but I believe that God put the two of them together and great things will come from their union. They are both so strong in faith and they are both dedicated to living in service to Him.

I am going to go with them to Life Church on Sunday to see what they are so excited about when they talk about the service there. So many things have happened at my church home that I really am looking for a new place to worship where there is enthusiasm and love for God and for each of the members. I love the congregation where we have worshipped – and where Jody and I met – but feel like it’s time to move on to something else, although I will miss everyone there. There are many people that I love like family.

Well, I guess I can step down from my soapbox for today! I had a lot of things on my mind and I feel like now that I’ve written them down, I can actually address them. That’s one of the great things I have found in “blogging” – seeing things written helps me to work them out and get things resolved.